bleeding heart

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Josh says I have a bleeding heart. You know the term, right? Someone that is excessively sympathetic. I also consider it someone that wants to help everyone. I used to get picked on when I was younger because I befriended the left out kids. I couldn’t stand to see them standing alone so I would make an effort to include them. In high school there was a girl that wasn’t well off. In fact, she never really smelled that good. So of course, she got made fun of a lot. I would try to ignore her standing alone but my heart would start hurting. The guilt would kick in so over I’d walk to visit with her.

The other night I heard someone say they were a collector of wounded birds. Meaning they often became friends with people who needed help or that he felt needed help. I also tend to do this. One of my closest high school friends would show up at my door sobbing about her complete loser boyfriend. I continually tried to fix the situation for her (though as any high school girl in love would do, she didn’t listen). I often talk to my friends and do what I call “mothering”. I just can’t help myself. Some of them just need it.

Sunday night I went to bed with a tightness in my chest so painful I could barely breath. Friends and family members are going through some serious stuff right now. And I can’t do a thing about it. I can’t fix the situation. I don’t even feel like I can help. I just have to stand by waiting with a shoulder to cry on or an ear to listen. I will just continue to try and be there for them the best way that I know how. I’m glad I’m a “bleeding heart” even though it can be overwhelming at times. I decided I should own it. I’m sure there’s some others out there. (I know for a fact my brother is one.) All I can think of is the scene from How the Grinch Stole Christmas where the Grinch says, “Bleeding hearts of the world unite”.

Author: kimberly on Wednesday, April 11, 2012 6:10 am
4 responses to “bleeding heart”
  1. i am indeed. sometimes it’s tough…but always worth it in the long run.

  2. Michelle says:

    I understand! I feel like I’m the same way. Just keep praying and it’ll help you to be that friend that’s needed.

  3. Sondra says:

    Aw, hugs. Let me know if there’s anything specific I can be praying for. Otherwise I’ll just keep all my Gridley fam/friends in prayer, because God knows the need. Love you!

  4. Jess says:

    Amen to that, Kimberly! I know EXACTLY how you feel – the anxiety settling within your heart and soul trying to figure out a way to make it better for someone. But you are right, sometimes we are only able to just “be there” for them or to lend a shoulder to cry on or an ear to listen. God Bless you for having the heart to extend to others.

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