To be perfectly honest with you, my post on Friday didn’t convey how nervous I was about this weekend. I was all “oh it sucks but I’m getting through it”. On the inside I was petrified about being alone all weekend with my thoughts and having to remember everything alone (since Josh had to work). Friday afternoon Josh got a phone call from my dad saying that he was taking half of Josh’s shift on Saturday. We were speechless. I wouldn’t be alone Saturday evening. Let’s just say that I cried a lot when I heard that. And I was reminded what an amazing dad I have.
I woke up on Saturday to peonies finally blooming. What great timing. Jasper and I got a few groceries in the morning. It was nice to get out of the house while Josh was sleeping. My mom watched Jasper for a bit during supper time so Josh and I could enjoy our grilled salmon together. After the little guy went to bed I cuddled with Josh on the couch and it was so much better than being alone. We laughed about stupid TV, talked about nothing serious and relaxed. After being on the verge of tears all morning it was just good to be with Josh and not think too much.
Sunday turned out to be a good day as well. Josh found out that because of the holiday there would not be any work for him to do that night. His supervisor ended up giving him the night off as long as he was on call. He did get called in once but it was about a hundred times better than if he worked all night.
This weekend was the first time in a long time that I felt good, like maybe our luck is changing. When Josh got off the phone with his supervisor on Sunday and said he didn’t have to go in…I was shocked. Things like that don’t happen for us. Well, at least they haven’t the past year. I’m glad this weekend is over though it didn’t end up to be terrible. I hope this means the tide is shifting for us.